Sunday, January 22, 2017

on choosing life.

I've been promising to start this blog for months. Technically, I did make good on my promise and created it months ago. I just never posted anything because, well, I have a lot of babies, and it's a scary thing to welcome the world into your life.

Today seemed like a fitting day to launch this blog as it marks the 44th anniversary of Roe v. Wade. As a Catholic, I am pretty familiar with the pro-life movement and am proud to be a pro-life feminist. However, I never thought that my husband, Matt, and I would find ourselves on the front lines of this fight for life in our first year of marriage.

Over the Easter Triduum 2016, Matt and I found out we were pregnant again after a few frustrating months following an early miscarriage. We were overjoyed at the gift of new life and were so grateful to be parents again! On April 13, at just over 6 weeks, we had our first ultrasound. Matt and I were nervous about an ectopic pregnancy because I had been feeling a sharp, specific pain. At the beginning of the ultrasound, I thought I saw four gestational sacs, but just assumed I was wrong for super obvious reasons.

When we saw the first baby's heartbeat, we both cried with joy because we had never seen that before with our first baby, Francis Jude. Our sonographer chuckled to herself and said, "Here's Baby A!" Next, she labeled Baby B. We got so excited about twins! Then, the sonographer found Baby C's heartbeat, and we laughed and made jokes about how triplet moms actually grow a third arm during the pregnancy to accommodate three little ones. The sonographer took a look at the fourth gestational sac, and it was empty. We were sad but at peace, and I thought about how that little saint would join Francis in heaven. Our doctor stepped in to take a look, and I noted that we hadn't gotten a photo of Baby C, and as the sonographer went back for it, Baby D appeared in the fourth sac! QUADS! Cue two full days of laughter followed by a solid evening of panic.

our sweet little babies' first photos.

Because of the high risk nature of the pregnancy, we were referred to a perinatologist for care. At 8 weeks gestation, we met with them, ready to put together an action plan for a healthy and safe pregnancy. Matt explained that we wanted to talk about what to do to ensure four healthy babies and one healthy mama and didn't want to discuss selective reduction at all. The perinatologist told us that most couples come in initially wanting to keep all their babies but change their minds once "reality" sets in, so she wanted us to know the facts to make what she considered an informed decision before it was too late.

She proceeded to then tell us all about selective reduction, telling us we would have the best chance of bringing home the most babies (she used the word babies!) if we reduced down to two. We were just shocked. Here we were coming to these specialists seeking care for our babies. It's amazing how quickly you get attached to the idea of four, so to be pressured to reduce was a slap in the face. Her tone implied that we had somehow made a mistake or done something wrong or that we were not looking at this situation correctly; basically, we were crazy.

We chose four the instant we knew there were four. Knowing the ache of losing our first baby only affirmed for us the impact of a person, no matter how tiny or short his/her life. We miss Francis deeply, every single day. We can see so clearly in our children that each life is unique and unrepeatable.

On October 16 at 32 weeks and 6 days gestation, we welcomed our miracle babies.
Cora Immaculée (3lbs, 8oz)
Raphael Gerard (3lbs, 9oz)
Theodore Ambrose (3lbs, 5oz)
Benedict Peter (3lbs, 2oz)

Our babies are now 14 weeks old. We are so thrilled to be their parents and love watching them grow. We hope you'll join us on this adventure with four! Please keep our family in your prayers!

Cora, Raphael, Theodore, Benedict

33 comments :

  1. Aw yay!!! So glad you started a blog and looking forward to following along!!! xox, Giedre

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  2. Awww babies!!! They're so beautiful ❤❤

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  3. I still remember the day of your first appointment, and sharing the news with all of us. Such a miracle then AND now. God bless you, Matt and your sweet babies on your journey together.

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    1. Thanks, L! I'm so glad you're here! We multiples mamas have to stick together! ;)

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  4. This is fantastic. I can't wait to come back for more. We are praying for you guys.

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  5. Love this! Thank you for sharing your precious family with us!!

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  6. Beautiful! Thank you for your honest witness! And those names!! I bet Kate at sanctanomina.net would love to hear about the stories behind the names!

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    1. Thank you! Kate will actually be writing about us later this week! Stay tuned!

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  7. Sooo fantastic that you started a blog!! Can't wait to hear more about your journey! All four of them are precious!

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  8. love hearing updates from Theresa! the babies are ADORABLE!

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  9. Dominus vobiscum and your BEAUTIFUL, precious children! God bless you for choosing life over convenience or anything else and may He continue to bless your family!

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  10. So beautiful! Thank you for sharing your incredible testimony to life! We pray for your family often. Xo

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    1. Beautiful witness and beautiful babies! Thank you for sharing, Justina! I know Clare Friis and Monica and John from Benedictine College and I actually went to world youth day in the same group as your hubby. Many prayers for your amazing family!

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  12. Love it!!! I can't wait to read more when you post the updates!

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  13. Since you're blogging, I assume you're okay with this question but feel free to ignore if you're not. Were these babies naturally conceived or through fertility treatments? What a crazy wonderful story and a beautiful family!

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  14. Wow! Awesome witness. Can't wait to read more about the craziness of raising quads! I have 7 babies, all singletons.

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  15. Just came over from Kate's name blog. What an awesome story! Love all your babies names but especially Cora's! I'm a mom of seven with 2 more in heaven.

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  16. Praise God for this wonderful gift and blessing of 4 children at once! Thank you for sharing & I look forward to hearing more!

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  17. Such beautiful babies! And beautiful names! How sad about so much pressure to "reduce"... I hope your story and your four healthy little ones will inspire others to choose life! 😊

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  18. I don't even know how I found my way to your blog, (I think your fiat t shirt pic on the Instagram account of @brickhouseinthecity or something) Anyway, just wanted to thank you for writing your story, I got goosebumps at your line "we chose four when we found out there were four." That's strength. :)

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  19. Just heard you on the Fountains of Carrots podcast. Your story is so inspiring and beautiful and REAL. Thank you for your witness to life! I am a 25 year old mama to one babe and I have no idea how you manage with four! You are amazing!

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  20. Just listened to the Fountains of Carrots podcast! Thank you so much for sharing your amazing story! I just had my third baby... Insert cliche about how I couldn't imagine four all at Once here!

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